chasing rainbows

im in that phase again, where i think blogging is a chore.

and yes,im done being all emo & wallowing in self-pity….
have moved on since.days have been better,much.

school’s hectic! there’s always so much to do.
just the start & yet i think its alr overwhelming.
i got into hockey—-trng only starts after seniors done w competitions, which is prolly late april/early may.
whooopedoo. ihatethesun. its an irony im in an outdoooor-sy cca.

im so lazy alr…got to go mug ):

we all need a little faith to get through the day.

only,almost there…

please,please turn back time?
im feeling grouchy and irritable.today is so not my day.
it doesnt help much that its back to sch tmr, oh the joy of having to wake so early, dressed in that darn shade of blue,having to endure tutorials&lectures and maths teacher looking all unhappy bcause i havent completed my assignments.
honestly its not that i dont want to. ‘the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak’
you shld have seen how driven i was last wk,how i wanted to spend my hols fruitfully;catching up on work&all. hah,wad a joke.
im but a lazy ass.all talk&no action.i can sound so inspired one sec and the next?icantbebothered.i hate my attitude i hate feeling like im lagging behind i hate doing work i hate knowing i suck at maths and am alr struggling so early into the year.
i fear having to stay back at the end of j1/nononooo i cant let it happen.
i want to get into Reach Cambridge so so so bad.i spent the whole day doing my presentation,trying to gather information…but to no avail/am i looking in all the wrong places?i dont feel confident…feels like there’s so many better people ard,im not sure if i shld go ahead with it.wad if i dont get it?aaaaah,the disappointment…there goes all the effort.but then again, am i good enough?idontknowihatethisfeelingitssucks.

lifesucks.

on conflicts.

oblivious fool, selfish mitch.
fancypancy making it so exclusive.
like hello, YOU arent exclusive yourself. haaaaah.

i.am.not.a.sour.puss.

hmph.

im happy to say that im happy to have had such a happy time with happy people at charmaine’s happy house. but im not happy enough to post a picture of the happy moments shared. i shall do it when im feeling happier.

am looking forward to spending the day at the cous’ house tmr.
lets see, movies&pizza&squash&swimming! : D

and you’ll never know.

can you believe im actually quite upset im unable to do my hist summary ?
thanks to that asswipe who sits next to me in class.i very kindly offered to lend it to him to copy the readings coz he was kicked out of class AND THEN HE NEVER RETURN ME!
rahh and i jus realized!
i was so eager to complete it & cross it off my ‘to-do’ list. booooooo.
now i gotta rush it tmr during break ):

on a brighter,less angry note, i enjoyed sch today. the weather was perfect too. smiles,broadly.

HELLO PARABLES,
hows this fri (7th mar) and sun (9th mar) for our gathering! 🙂
friday, we were thinking of going over to charm’s place for dinner/boardgames & movie marathon!
sunday, an outing to the zoo!

please respond, check your emails&smses, soon to come.

LOVELOVE.